My morning meditation took me to a memory of when I was 17 years old and in college. I had a dream, the first dream I ever had in which I could see faces, of my boyfriend making out with another girl. The "feel" of this dream was different. It bothered me deeply all day. My friends tried to assure me that it was just a dream, but I couldn't shake the feel of it. After my classes that day, I drove the 45 minutes to his house. The girl from my dream answered the door and I was dumbfounded. Speechless. I physically could not speak. There were so many emotions running through me at that time. He was not there, she was friends with his younger sister, two years younger than I, and running her mouth. Her first words to me, as she looked me up and down in the way that teenage girls do, were, "You must be Crystal." Then she went on to say, "Well I've been seeing him for a while and I might be pregnant." I just stood there a little dizzy and varying from wanting to punch her in the mouth (I was feisty then) to wanting to throw up. It was when she said the next words that clarity hit me hard. She said, "I just want him here right now to say which one of us he wants." I looked at her, laughed, and said, "You can HAVE him!" I walked away with my head held high, got in my car, and sobbed the whole 45 minutes home.
The next day, with swollen eyes, I came to a realization of how much that dream taught me. I had always had feelings about people and had sometimes had dreams that came to fruition as well as many déjà vu incidences. Most psychics will tell you that it is very hard to be psychic with yourself because of the emotions that are all tied into a situation or relationship. I had a feeling that this boyfriend was a cheater, but had ignored the signs. Fortunately, my guides would not let me keep ignoring the signs. The "crispness" of this dream and the ability to see the faces was all new to me. It opened up a new way of seeing for me as well. The whole experience showed me to trust my gut and not to be talked out of my feelings. It was an unfortunate experience, but it taught me so much about discernment when it comes to personal relationships and friendships. I have learned to ask the hard questions, even when I know the answer and don't want to hear it, to trust my gut, and let it be if it doesn't feel right. It is not always easy to walk away, but I am thankful for this gift.
What special gifts have your guides given you to help you with discernment?